Dearest self,
I understand that just a few months ago you were very concerned about everything, and I understand the crippling anxiety that resulted from this wasn't exactly fun; however, I think you've taken things too far again. Your attitude towards life is a wild pendulum -- one that never seems to settle into a balance. You simply don't care at all now, and that is just as life-damaging as caring too much. Perhaps you spent all your Fucks, and now have none left to give. I get it. But you have to figure your shit out. You can't always be either panic stricken or completely apathetic; at some point, your going to have to live, and that involves both letting things come as they are and directing yourself towards goals. Listen, you don't need to have a grand master plan just to set and achieve the simple goals you already know you want. Set them. Work for them. You'll find that the path more important then the goal itself, but you do have to walk the path.
You just tanked a logic test. This doesn't make any sense. You know you're good at logic. I might go so far as to say talented. That's why this is really crap. The smallest bit of effort keeps you up with your classmates, but that effort is effort you must undertake nonetheless!
I know you'll try harder. Despite how many times you tell me that you "don't care," I know that it is a lie. You only say that to try and convince yourself, but its not working, so just get over it. Invest yourself!
Thanks.
Do better,
--Kayle
